Cool On The Exterior, Warm Within
Sleep-deprived
Friday, November 24, 2006 @ 2:17 PM
For the past week, I have been reading up so much on Cairns and Darwin, on atas tai-tai stores in S'pore. At night, when I crawl into bed, my head is still buzzing with information. My last thoughts are usually "What should the headline be? The finer things in life? Top 10 must-see spots?..." before I finally slip into oblivion.
When I finally sent my articles in to the Ed by the deadline today, it was with relief. No more feeling like I'm consumed by a driving force to cover all grounds. At least a brief respite would be good.
Here's something interesting I found about Darwin. Cyclone Tracy went down in history as the tropical storm which ravaged the city on the Christmas Eve of 1974, causing widespread destruction. One good thing that came out of it was the Beer Can Regatta, an annual affair held in July. What started as a recycling effort bloomed into a festive event, as participants exercise ingenuity in using empty beer cans to fashion vessels of all shapes and sizes, before embarking in a race on the waters. (Pics courtesy of John McCabe)
I'm caught up with wanderlust. Reading the adventures of backpackers who simply take a year or two off work, travelling without a care in the world, makes me wonder what I'm doing with my life. But then again, I think I'm too Singaporean at heart. Too kiasu to be able to drop everything and end up with a few pennies to live on at the end of my world tour. What am I going to do when it's all over? Out of touch with the market, no job, savings depleted... and how do you support your family then? Sigh, not realistic at all. The best way to tour the world, I realise, is to be an air stewardess. You get the perks of travelling while working. But every job has its pros and cons, I guess.
What do I want out of life? I'm stuck between the phase of wanting to land a good job and hoping to slack a while more before I get caught in the never-ending rat race.I realise that there is a lot that I don't know, a lot of skills that I want to pick up (after regretting that I haven't done so when I had the opportunity). But all I have done is spending a whole lot of time thinking and speculating. And when I finally make a choice, would it be the right one?
I don't know. Don't ask me what I know.
I just want to be a useful person. A pillar of society, as they all say.
